if only you knew

If you could really see me behind this exterior I build up ages ago. If you could really see me, you will be frightened by my past. Inside, I am breaking, and my scars can no longer hold me together. They are threatening to tear me apart. A past I no longer lived, still haunts me every night. With every piece of it, pushing me towards the dark side. Oh gosh, if you knew, you will take a step back, keeping the distance between us. You will judge me for sure. I am not the girl you once fell in love with. I am full of secrets; secrets I wished to hide forever, for the sake of you. If only you knew, you wouldn't want to fall in love with me.